Depression

I think I know now why people have suicidal thoughts, why they are depressed.

I think I'm experiencing it now. Today is saturday day free from school and why I'm not happy?

Cause all this week I was waiting for whis weekend to come - I wanted to relax and rest, but my mom make an appointment with hairstylist to cut my hair (only fringe) at 8:00 - I had to woke up at 7:30, I'm living zombie or I will be if the things are going to be like that. After it my dad is having a ceremony of getting a doctor's degree. I have to cheer him and make photos of it. It's my free day, please have a mercy on me. I want to cry and I even cry cause there is nothing more I can do in my state. When I'm depressed I have a song that cheer me on:

One Republic Marchin on

 I'll write when I come back (problably). I want to get my saturday back.

Only one thing is makin me happy that today I'm meeting with friends at film night. I can't wait.

Thursday

    My normal day in school is really boring especially thursdays. I don't have any interesting lessons so my will for going to school is really low. What would you do if only 2 hours of one day is important and the rest not?
I have such problem on thursdays - only lessons I want to be at are biology and polish lessons, but I can't give up all my lessons just with this one reason, I don't want to. I'd like to sleep more on this day and do sth that will bring me pleasure (like sewing, painting, shopping or sth like that). Instead of it I don't have half of my lessons and have to sit in reading-room in my school and do copies that the teacher gave us.

    Maybe I should buy an iPad or sth like that to have more fun in school. To tell you the truth I'm thinking about it really seriously but convincing my parents is very hard. They don't want to buy me neither iPad nor small notebook cause you already have big laptop but if you want you can buy yourself a mobile with whatever you want. Yeah, great idea. But I don't want to change my mobile cause I like the one I alredy have.
What to do to convince them?

Something to release my stress and nervousness:

These are this year androids made by Dzyplastic. The pink one is named Rupture, the green Racer and there is one more -blue which name is Bluebot (but its not so interesting like this two). For more info

Multi lines

Few days ago I was searching for technological news and I founded this: multi lines.
These are cables with different length. I think that they are very convenient cause all my room is covered with cables. If I want to do sth I have to carry them from one place to another. I have them so many that if I want to plug sth in I have to disconnect one of them. The disadvantage of normal cables is that they are rather short and can't reach every centemeter of your room. They have different colours so you don't have to toil your sight with black or white cables.

 If you want to see more go to this page.

"Beastly"

I don't know if you saw the trailer of new film "Beastly" which will be showed in march.
I think it's a beautiful story, but it's a pity that they make him as a monster.
If they wanted to do sth with trees, flowers, petals and sth else then there are more of the ideas than this:

Even though I don't like the looks of the main hero I think that the story shows truth about love and emotions connected with them.
I would like to go for it and see if my expectations will be fulfilled.

Film

Today at Polish lessons at school we were watching a Polish film.
Directed by Tomas Bagiński "Cathedral".
I like films like that, I regret that it isn't longer but I know that even this one was made in few years time.
The music is rightly chosen and the graphics are very meticoulusly done.
I want to watch more of his movies and I recommend that to you too.

It's for you opinion if you want to watch it but I liked it very much.
I have to start learning for my tomorrow's test.
See ya later

P.S. One of his films is at Berlin Film competition and is named "Świteź".

My Valentines

I spent my Valentines in Chinese restaurant (my favourite ^^).
We ordered sweet and sour soup and I took fish in dough. These are dishes that I take nearly always.
It was small celebration but I like them...
After the main dish I got a present. It was a pair of earrings.

They look like roses. They are made from coral. I love them (but I have problem with putting them :( )
After that we ate a meringue cake. It's very sweet and it easily can be broken.

But it was delicious!

Happy Valentine Day!!

Today is 14th February which means we can celebrate the Valentine Day today.
For some people it's happy holiday and for some (more than the first group) it's hated.
I will write more when I'll come back but for now sth for you:

It's kawaii, isn't it? I always wanted to have such small and cute dog ^^

Posters

Tomorrow we will start to go to school again. We have three months to summer holidays.
It'll be hard time and it's second semester so we must do our best to get good grades at school report.
But I don't want to sadden myself...
Tomorrow are valentines! Like every year everything will be decorated with red hearts, kisses etc.
I have in plans to go to restaurant and I'm hoping for present ^^
My mom got it today. It's necklace with amber which I helped to choose. Mom was amazed and very happy.

I was flipping through the pages on the internet and I founded this pictures (this are my fave):

We can find it everywhere as a commercials at posters. If you want to see it all go here.

Flower necklace

I start to think that I'm addicted to school. I'm also strengthening my convinction that I'm a masochist.
At my post few days ago I mentioned that I was at mineral market. We go there cause you can see very original and beautiful things. Every time we are buying something. This year my sister bought herself two pairs of earings, my mom a necklace and me too.

It's flower made with mother-of-pearl connencted with silver leaf. It's all pinky but the it's right colour for the flower. It's the only thing that I liked. I like my sister earings too but I don't like to wear them so I just leave every earing to my sister (she loves them ^^).
I finished writing an essay and tommorow I'm going to send it to them.
Cross your fingers for me...

Television

I'm interested in Japanese culture. I love reading mangas and watching animes. I love to look at films connected with it, clothes like kimonos and my biggest dream is to go there.
But my country is very reserved to Japanese culture so it was a big suprise for me that one of our national channel (TVP kultura) emited Tonari no Totoro (My neighbour Totoro).
I watched it with pleasure excepting the funny plot or obsolete line.

When I was at japanese caucus my friend bought herself a hat with face of Totoro. He's adorable and while watching this film you start to love him even more then at the beginning.
I want to hug him or just stroke his silky hair ^^